beyond measure
It’s been 10 years now. Am still broken. I thought I was on the journey of healing, but current events have shown me that I am still in the same boat.
I cry out for Mercy, at the altar of God. At the throne of Grace I pour my all. Will thou not wipe my tears. I seek not for the downfall of those who inflict pain, but rather strength to stand and continue to be. Peace to hold my heart in one piece. And hope that one day I will be ok.
This is not what I expected.
If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be?
Twice my weight, twice the hurt. Claws and canines not for play. Delicate is this skin of mine and weak to the knees this frame of mine .
And trust me you are not a puppy anymore.
I have no idea how my year will unfold. So many things I want to accomplish but have no idea how to go about it , or even if it’s the right path for me to take. I have so many changes I think I need to make, but I don’t know if it’s what I need in this very season.
The question I have had over the years is whether or not what I want to do ,am really supposed to do it. Is it what’s best for me?
Had a chat with someone I love dearly and they told me something very simple yet profound. Something I have always known, heard about and probably said a thousand times but it hit differently today.
Seek the will of God in everything. And He will lead you and give you peace in all your ways.
Was told something crazy but true as well. If you follow after opportunities, your life will be led by opportunities. But if you follow after God’s will , you will be led by God. And He will give you peace .
I was told that the answer was already within me. There is always this knowing that comes with peace when you allow your life to be led by the Spirit. And when you feel unsettled about something it’s probably not the will of God. But even if you discover it is not. There is no need to make a rush decision. Allow Him to straighten the path. Rest in God
We may never know what life is going to bring us , as it is always unpredictable. But when we focus on God, no matter where we find ourselves He will be the one guiding and leading us through. All the questions you are having about what to do next, how to navigate your current situation, the answers are already there in your inner man.
Sit down, be quiet, pray , and listen to the inner man, you will be surprised that you have the answer all along, as long as you are in complete submission to Jesus.
Funny how I started my day with so much joy in my heart, only to get a slap on my face that changed my whole mood for the rest of the day.
I later on realised that my response today was wrong in that I let other people control my thoughts and emotions. It’s like I gave this person, the right to have the final say over my life as if they rule over me.
As I slowly realised this, I cried in repentance and gave the rightful place to the Sovereign king. Only He gets to sit on the throne as He is the Lord of my life. All other names fall at His mercy.
Only He can sit on the throne,as He is wise, holy, full of mercy , love and grace, above all Just.
It’s one of the strangest things that often happens in a Christian journey.
To live, you have to die to self. It’s like saying the way up is down. Pretty ironic right. But yes our ways are no way close to the grand creator’ s way. He operates at a level that the Human mind does not always find sensible.
But I am willing to trust, because, record has it that He has never failed. So I think it’s worth a shot.
I don’t know who needs to hear that.
Cheers
FYI this is not what I had in mind to post.
There is a thin line between being content and being narrow minded.
Be careful not to be too comfortable and settle for what’s not your best.
Felt the need to give a final post for 2025
I have to say, writing goals down works like magic. Ofcoz I didn’t do all the things written on my list😆. But having that feeling when you cross out something on your list is quite fulfilling.
Accomplishing something, no matter how small, builds some kind of sense of progress in life. Though I got to say I got distracted along the way and started comparing myself to others.
This made me feel like, such a loser and have been pretty down for the past couple of weeks. However today, I decided to go through my plan book and gratitude dairy, I have much more to be proud of for myself than to look down at.
True, I don’t have milestones as great as my colleagues, but I have sure made significant changes that have shaped a whole new me, better than I was last year.
For that, I am grateful to God, for it has all been by His grace and love, let’s not leave out patience tooðŸ¤.
Thank you God, you sure have been making something beautiful in this life. And as I step into ,2026 God willing, may it be even better and brighter.
Key note for 2025
Strive to be better than you were before not than your neighbour, we are all on a different path.
Cheers!
See you in 2026.
All I want for Christmas is you!
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?
A year ago, I didn’t think I would be back in my home country. Back to all the madness I had once escaped from
I love my country. I love my people, however in my field of work, it’s usually a nightmare. But anyway it’s God’s plan.
On the bright side, last year I hoped to have holidays with family and friends, people I love most, which is what I will have this time around.
I may not have pictured it but well maybe it’s what I needed.
How easy it is to limit ourselves.
Limit the prayers to avoid disappointment
Be more practical and not expect miracles
Be more real than use faith because (it didn’t work before on certain things)
How easy it is to limit God’s power
Simply because it didn’t work out at some point.
How easy it is to lose our hope and faith in God.
I have to ask myself each time . Should I take the easy way or stick to the path. Of late the easy way has been quite tempting. Am barely hanging on.
Narrow is the path indeed.
The voice in me 