The voice in me

I long to be loved and to love. Am on a celibate journey, but days like today, make me long for little bit more. I made this decision to give myself time and space to figure out myself. It was my deepest desire to find myself and love myself.

Days like these, make me wonder. Ever felt a longing for a presence that is not there. But even in my lowest points, am not interested in the parties knocking on my door. Then again, its been a while since I went to church, its been a while since I prayed for a long time , like spending time in God’s presence. Perhaps my deepest desire is God after all. The loneliness is because I haven’t been conscious about His presence

Have been ignoring my feelings. I know there is something brewing in my heart, but I haven’t been able to process it. the lack of appetite, sleeping a lot and not being interested with social media, surely something is wrong. Its been like this for a couple of days. Going out with friends didn’t fill the void. talking to family didn’t do the trick either, besides they are quite busy. But putting it here has made it feel a bit lighter.

ONE THING IS FOR SURE, AM LONGING FOR MY DEEPEST DESIRE.