The voice in me

My year started off pretty bad. Not only was I recovering from a heartbreak but I also faced a total shocker. I was dismissed from my then job with immediate effect.

On top of trying my very best to execute my duties diligently, I had made a huge move on leaving my , great, ‘out of the country job’, believing I had found where I would settle while in my own homeland. But, 7 and a half months later, I was told I did not fit the company’s work culture. And just like that I was cut loose.

As much as I was hurting, I didn’t break. I fought to find a way forward, I discovered a different version of me.

Funny enough, I quickly went into survival mode, I cut down my expenses. Sent a notice to my landlord as I knew I would not be able to afford my rentals but also fully aware that I  didn’t know or have a plan for another accommodation let alone get money. I asked around for short term gigs to just help me navigate, while I plan for my next move. I  also looked for legal advice over the termination situation. But bottom line, I was broke, jobless, and about to be homeless.

And now, four months later, I am in a better position than I was then, emotional, socially, financially and physically.  I have mental clarity over who I am , what I want and where I am going. It scares me sometimes. I have archived more in this brief 4 months. I never knew I could be this strong. But hey I wasn’t alone. God carried me. He opened doors, He stretched my tent and held my hand through it all.

Just because you lost your job, it doesn’t rob you of your worth. It’s an opportunity to discover yourself outside the job. Your biggest investment is yourself, and through the grace of God that one closed door can open several others

Don’t get me wrong I am still ‘work in progress’. My current salary is even half what I used to get, but this time the difference is I have built systems that sustain me.

I don’t even have a place to call my own to stay, and i work every day, weekends included, but somehow I am happier. Am just in the messy process but can’t wait to see how this will turn out in the next couple of years. I am still standing and it’s a better version of me .