The voice in me

I got to say the year is moving pretty fast. We are in the third month already. I barely feel like we have just started.

Well it marks month number 4 of celibacy. I have to say there are days I feel lonely. its one thing to go for dates and never get to be in a relationship , compared to not going on any dates at all. I have been closed up. no interesting string of chats on my phone. My social accounts all closed up . Just trying to focus on a better me.

Though there is a down side, loving myself has been rewarding. Am respecting my feelings and understanding my emotions more. Have been learning to focus on things that matter. Its like my mind just cleared up and I see things a bit differently. Not all the things I have planned have worked out. I was supposed to be at my new job by now. I was supposed to have changed my wardrobe by now, but it doesn’t negate the fact that I have been learning and unlearning some important things which believe are necessary for the next seasons in my life.

I have been single for close to 2 years now, but previously have been trying to put myself out here in the hope that I will find my prince charming. but since I stopped all that and channeled my energy into other things, its been worth it. I can say, I am loving the woman I am becoming. though my friends believe am getting too comfortable being single. For the first time in my life I think am having a clearer view of what I want out of this life. What I want to make out of it, instead of just riding along.

Hope to come back to this post and still smile,

After all this is my little diary,