The voice in me

It’s usually after a meltdown, a silent war that happens in my mind.

I usually get tired of the tears because no one will be there to wipe them off. I then take my plan book, deep breath, and then boom am in work mode.

Don’t think I will tell you that 5 minutes ago I was crying. I will put up an act that will help me go about my business. The task box ticking, as if that’s how my heart heals.

Maybe that’s how I heal. My mind won’t be able to handle the heavy mental work, so I tune to the next possible thing. It could be a deep clean of my space. Doing all the things on my list of procrastination. Handle all the suspended matters. And just like that the job is done and I feel better about myself.

The problems would not have been solved , yes, but at least I would have covered much ground on my to do list.