The voice in me

The morning I decided to work on this topic, something frustrating but funny happened.

I planned on going into town and run a few errands. So since am not driving I had to use a bus. When I went to the usual bus stop ,unfortunately there were police there. For the few times I have used buses I have never waited for more than 3 minutes before something came up. But on this particular day and in that particular situation nothing was coming.

Needless to say of the silent truth about why I couldn’t get transport, I tried waiting. Slowly become annoyed then a full blown tantrum. In my head I was busy asking God ‘ I prayed for the success of this trip. So what is this supposed to mean. If you didn’t want me to go to town why didn’t you just say so.?’

I couldn’t wait any longer so I started walking, changing plans in my head. Decided to just go to the nearest shopping center but deep down I knew I would not find what I wanted. I literally just started walking off the roads onto another path . And what do you know. Buses passed by as if to spite me. You could be wondering ,why didn’t I just stop them. But I was already on a different road heading a different direction.

Fair enough I changed my mind again after seeing the buses and went back to the main road where I can get my ride. Guess what.! The buses stopped coming. Honestly people, it was like someone is trying to tell me not to go. I won’t explain how the rest of the story went, but I managed to go where I intended to go and got what I wanted to get.

Now reflecting on this , it got me thinking. There are some things we really want but we often seem either delayed or denied. We are never really sure of what exactly the answer is. And what gets confusing is the different ideologies people have come up with. Some will say you don’t have to fight for whats yours, while others say if you walk up to a closed door just open it because that’s what doors are for. In the moment, like the real situation , it’s not clear whether it’s delay or denial, and you not sure whether to fight for it or wait it out. The real question is ,how do you handle yourself?

Because obviously if it’s delay it just means There is a better timing for the fulfillment of your desires. And if it’s denial it means there is a better option well suited for you. But it’s not like God will say end that relationship, John is coming next year and will provide the wedding of your dreams. You will just never know it all.

Someone once said ,God always gives one of the 3 responses to our prayers. Either an instant yes, delayed yes or a ‘no I have somtething better’. The later 2 often makes the journey difficult. I guess that’s where patience comes in !

Cheers!