The voice in me

You had me , but didnt want me

oh what wonderful moments we shared

the pure joy, smiles and laughter

side by side we faced the world together

silly dates, random road trips

I thought it meant love

but time proved us wrong

you had me but you didn’t want me

maybe thats why you left.

I wrote this after I healed. Looking back I still didn’t get the lesson behind having met this person. Its something I ask God from time to time. Everything seemed right but it wasn’t. Am sure many people experience the same thing. I believe the phrase is love bombing or ghosting, I don’t know really. How could he have wanted me if I didn’t want myself? Am happy with where I am now. In my celibacy I have learnt to love myself and like the person I am. I know I will love again, just maybe not now.