The voice in me

Chapter 4

“Martha , what do you see?” A voice thundered through the room. And right before her eyes a screen  rolled up, she could see the time Her husband left. To her surprise, the man lived to regret of his decision. She saw all the wicked plots and skims the younger woman, Melissa was doing . Though she vowed to hate him for ever, part of her heart arched .

“You chose not to fully forgive,  and that is what binds both of you in great despair. You tied yourself to his yoke and carry the burden together, if only you had forgiven him. Things would have been a lot better for you.”

A new screen appeared,  it was divided onto 3. She saw her children. Each had suffered terribly when the father left. They had their silent battles that constantly hit them to the ground. She could see how she was too busy trying to prove to the world that she is a lovely lady that was left by a cheating horrible man. And neglected her children in the process.  She denied them to see their father, and resulted in them growing a profound hatred towards her. Even though she worked hard to provide everything they physically needed. She deprived them of emotional need. Martha was surprised to see her youngest daughter walking into a mental health institution held in cuffs. The oldest son in and out of jail over the past years and the middle child sadly in a marriage that ended exactly like how hers did. They were all suffering and non had found peace in life.

“You should have paid attention.  The signs where always there, but you held on to your pain and forgot that you could still love. You chose to prove your innocence to the world at the expense of the future of your children. You never listened to them. You never heard them.”

In tears, Martha could not find words. She simply went on her knees. “Am sorry, I never knew, I never realized. If only I could make it right, please help them for me as I can nolonger do so. They don’t deserve this. I should have done better.” Those were the only words she could find herself saying. The truth lay before her eyes and it was different from what she had lived to believe.