The voice in me

Chapter 5

“Excuse me, are you ok?”  Martha opened her eyes. She was surrounded by concerned strangers, all trying to help her get up. What had happened?  where was she now ? and who were all these people ?

It seems like she was in church, but not her usual church. Before she could make sense out of everything, right before her eyes stood Lisa,  her middle child. She also looked worried and wanted to help. But strangely she didn’t recognize her.

Martha got up, feeling a bit woozy,  she was helped to her sit. The pastor continued the service while a nice lady sat close to Martha holding her hand offering some kind of reassurance that everything was alright.

After service the nice lady introduced her self. “Hie sweetheart, sorry I did not get to introduce myself let alone speak with you. Poor thing, you look very shaken. Am Lynn and what’s your name?”. Hesitantly she whispered  “Martha”. Wait, that was not how her voice sounded!  She cleared her throat and tried again.”My name is Martha. Where am I?” Still, something was not right. “It’s ok relax, you are safe Martha. You are in church, Graced Ministry.  Did you come here with your mom or anyone or by yourself ?” “I don’t even know how I got here but am by myself”. ” Okay. Where are you coming from?” “Um, aah. I don’t know Lance city. ” ” that’s ok , do you remember how you got here?” ” No. I just remember being home then the next thing, I don’t know am here, am I not dead or are we all dead ? ” Lynn could tell this young lady was confused and lost.” That’s alright,  is there anyone back home we can call , so that they know you are ok?” ” No, there is no one, I stay alone , have always been alone.”. ” You stay alone !, how old are you honey? ” ,” Am 57 years old”. The surprised look on her face confirmed Martha’s fear. The voice wasn’t hers, her body wasn’t hurting anywhere and she hadn’t felt as alive as she did now, her eye sight was sharp and she was never hairy before.  She wasn’t in her own body.

“Lisa, would you come here for a second.”. “Always eager to help Lynn. Hie there.” “Martha , this is Lisa, she is also from Lance city, but moved here some years back. Lisa this is Martha ,we want to find her family and help her get back home safe.” ” OH that’s no problem,  it’s been years since I went back home. Why don’t we grab lunch and talk it out. You look rather pale and hungry.  Let me get my kids and we get to it ok.”

It felt sereal to see her daughter and her two beautiful grand kids. If it was a dream she hoped not to wake up. It was beautiful watching the two youngsters fighting to take the first pizza slice, and their mother trying to bring peace at the table. “Jake and Judy will the two of you just stop it, you are driving me insane.” ” But it’s my turn to take the first slice, last time it was Jude.” “Did not!”,”Did to!” “Did not!”.”Mom ,this is not fair it’s my turn today”. Jude swooshed his way to the box, without a second thought took not only one but two slices. And looked at his brother “I got it anyway”. This made Jake scream in anger and hatred.  It was supposed to be his turn and his selfish brother got his way again. “Jake put those slices back in the box now. Neither of you are going to eat that pizza, till you learn your manners.” Martha just watched in delight. How she had longed to be part of her children’s lives.