A lot has happened this year. The good, the bad, the unexpected. It’s been a rollercoaster ride. Some goals have been archived and some are still work in progress. Some chapters were closed while others were opened.
All in all I am still here. And God willing, I still have to face the future as well. The insecurities and fears are there, but we just have to move.
Photo by Farai G.
The best memories I have so far are when I got to work with kids, a project from work and when I got an unexpected gift from a dear beloved. The worst memories were when I realised I didn’t mean anything to certain people and times I had to make really tough,yet important decisions.
Funny enough I don’t have any moment that I would want to replay. What’s done is done, we move on.
It’s the first of November and it sure does feel like the year is closing up soon. No more surprises please let’s keep that for next year. Am done for now.
Too focused on the present, the past and future all seem distant.
I honestly wanted to answer this question but I couldn’t think of a single event. It got me thinking am I really that much disconnected to the world before me. Have I been swallowed up with my own current needs and own struggles that never got the chance to sit down and reflect on the past.
Should I blame my history teacher for not having built the desire to learn and appreciate past events and not just cram the dates to pass and forget.
Or is it because I just never really found anything fascinating.
One would think because of my Christian background I would run to the bible. But even there I couldn’t pick a single event . Perhaps I don’t exactly believe the stories to have happened and I just read or heard about them as great tales. Why did my heart not move at all.
Should I be worried?
Am I the only one?
But it’s through those who lived before us that we learn to live life. As history is known to repeat it’s.
Oh it was one trying day today. I don’t even know how am even blogging. Do I feel defeated at this point,? Yes!. Am I super exhausted? Big yes!, But did I break down? No, and am proud of that.
Yes today wasn’t the easiest of the days, but I am really surprised at how much I have grown. The old version of me would be all curled up in my blankets thinking about all the things that headed south throughout the day. But here I am, studying my bible, studying my work stuff, making entries in my gratitude and prayer journals, wait and even blogging?
Just a little too much But surprisingly am stronger than that.
God sure has been dealing with me in is own way. I will give Him praise in all seasons. Even seasons like these.
For a long time I have been focused on the benefits of being a Christian and forgetting entirely the whole reason of being one. Was studying the word of God today preparing for our small church youth talk on repentance, and one statement leaped out from the pages and struck my heart.
Understanding the new Covenant.
I do feel like God is trying to tell me something. it felt more like a question. As if God was asking me, do you understand our relationship in the new light of salvation.
It created in me the desire to want to know more of this and seek more understanding.
Ever since I started working, my days are never predictable, except of course that I have to eat, sleep and clean up. But each week is an adventure, I never know what to expect. Some days I dread to wake up especial if I have been getting not so good surprises, but there are days am looking forwad to the day.
Perhaps I should say, an ideal week, is one with its unique surprises, coupled with some time for me to blog, paint, sketch or knit, maybe have a friendly visit and of course church if the week work schedule allows.
Speaking of which, if you are a religious person, when was the last time you went to church?
Life can be pretty rough. The waves and storms can hit us so bad that we can lose our navigation. Its so easy to feel lost in this world. But there is a light house.